>The Morning’s Musings— It’s Been A While


So it’s 5AM, & I’m blogging. I ask myself what precisely I have to write about….Nothing that I can actually place my mind on. The last few days since my last post have been totally different from everything that I’m used to. I’m not so sure that I can start talking about them all.

I’m scratching my head while my old man is outside my door, doing…..whatever that man does when he wakes up at this hour of the morning. Sometimes that man amuses me with the things he does. Like the way he dresses sometimes. You’d think he was still trapped somewhere in the 1970’s… Sometimes, he annoys me intensely. & really, when I say intensely, do not be fooled into underestimating the gravity in which I actually use that word. Sometimes he upsets me intensely in his ways. The things he does and says. He talks like he doesn’t realize the effects of words. For a man that’s been a pastor for so long, & now an “elder” in the church, you’d think he would be more careful the way he treats his family….ah well….

I’ve often said that the man’s biggest problem was that he didn’t have his first child till he was 40+…I mean, if the whole thing about you been a fool at 40 stands true, then how do you become malleable like you’re supposed to be when there are kids in the equation??? Mehn….enough tears have been shed over spilled milk.

But you know, sometimes, he inspires me. I look at how hard he works, how much attention to detail he puts in over things that ordinarily shouldn’t matter. How he can create a state of almost perfection in his circumference of specialty & I say to myself, this is how I need to be. I think I’ve learned a lot from him. I’ve learned that hard work does pay. I’ve learned that there is dignity in labour. That, took me quite a while to learn I’ll honestly say…

I wish that, in inheriting character from him as I ripen with age, that I could take the good things that I admire about him, & leave all the things that annoy me…. Well, I guess we’ll just have to wait & see now won’t we. Someone told me that it’s something I’m going to have to really pray about. Well, it’s actually that important to me…. I’ll do what I can…

Anyways, so I’m awake…maybe I should go back to bed…sleep showed up easier before 12AM thanks to a dose of vodka & mango juice. Albeit it sounds like a weird combo, truth is that it actually worked for me quite amazingly. I never expected that it’d taste so nice… so I went to sleep & missed a call from….let’s call her A for now k??? I missed a call from A… what’s the story behind me & A??? hmmm….I wonder if I’ll ever get to actually tell you…

Okay, so now that I have a bit of respite from the need to write, I’ll try to go back to sleep…maybe I’ll watch the trailer for Thor first…it had better be a good movie. The trailer looks fantastic…

I’m sure I’ll have itchy fingers again sometime soon….till then, live free.

About The Capoeira Panda

Panda makes his home in the world of words and metaphors. In the hopes to be more than just a confused blogger, he currently works as the editor for an ecommerce company that was good enough to hire him, and lives with his flat mates & two imaginary dogs who get along just fine. He enjoys reading good books, writing, relaxing with his friends, & poking fun at his mother over the phone. When he's not doing any of these, he sometimes sits back and wonders why anyone expects to learn anything useful about him by reading this bio. View all posts by The Capoeira Panda

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