Words which you can never understand their effect. You say what you want without an ounce of care. The hairs on your back are never moved by the callousness of your lips.
But you just don’t see it.
Everything is right from your point of view. Even when you’re wrong, telling you that you are wrong would be the the greatest way I could go wrong. But you want a relationship with him?
Now you want to reap the fruit of a seed you never took the time to sow. But it’s not there for you to pluck. The idea that you could have gone wrong terrifies you. You can’t bear the thought. So you set up an aggressive defense. It’s everyone against you. You are the besieged one who did nothin wrong. I am obviously at fault.
The irony of it is, he’s never claimed to be without fault. A dysfunctional child of parents who were never in conjunction, but he took the unction on himself & attempted to do something sensible. As patchy & incorrect as his methods may have been. But you’ve never attempted to see that. All you see is what you want. Your ideas of what should be ideal have blinded you from what the reality is, & so you can’t even see that despite your early inability to do the right thing, he has survived, & attempts to make something of himself.
Will you ever get it?
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