Alone with my thoughts, I try to think but it’s like my brain has gone silent.
The only thing I remember in these days past is asking me where the time went.
Time spent. Never to be regained, and I mourn ‘cos I obviously haven’t used it wisely.
And these days when I look around, unfortunately, I see.
I see my surrounding, my environs, my nation.
My current predicament, or in simpler terms, my current situation.
My dreams and the things I fear. Things I hate & all that I hold dear.
I wish I could look into the future, but all I do is see my past years.
In truth, it’s not like they’re so many, I’m only twenty uhhmm…
And from the point of view of those ahead, the battle isn’t even nearly done.
*sigh*…. I wonder to myself, when will restoration finally come???
But I digress. The stress of being… just simply being, shouldn’t be that much, or so it would seem.
So I see that which I need to see, even though I wish I couldn’t see it.
Ignorance is bliss. This is a fact. If you never knew it then how can you miss it?
But to speak the truth, I’m glad that my eyes were opened. My brain was lit up like a light bulb getting a surge of electricity.
My mind was opened up like a rose blooming in the evening light.
To be a bit cliché, my thoughts emerged like a butterfly from its cocoon & summarily took flight.
So in hind sight, learning is the best thing that ever happened, and it happened for a purpose.
I think of the future, but all I see is the past. I ask myself, for God’s sake, how long will this last?
So I run towards the future, I embrace this life unseen.
It’s time to be something else. I’m tired of the way I have been.
The disarray of my way is in no way the way which I thought I wanted it yesterday.
So I’ll go with this plan that’s not a plan. I’ll walk in it from day to day.
I’m ready to learn, to earn the right to exist.
I think, therefore I am. Therefore my right to exist is only as valid as the strength of my thoughs.
So I shall learn to think differently. To enter an existence different from the past whence I have lived.
To think differently is the plan… To think things through from my own perspective…
Thoughts from a Maverick’s Perspective.