“Our strength grows out of our weaknesses” – Ralph Waldo Emerson
“If you think a weakness can be turned into a strength, I hate to tell you this, but that’s another weakness” – Jack Handy
“The greatest weakness of all is the great fear of appearing weak” – Jacques Beniqne Bossuel
“Sometimes our greatest strength come from our weakness.” – Source Unknown
” I believe in the power of weakness.” – Pat Buckley
So apparently, these people (along with a whole lot of others) seem to view weakness as something that is ok…
I don’t know how I feel about that, honestly.
See, In my very short lifetime, I’ve had to become strong. I was forced to pull out the man in me and become rock hard. As time went by, I realized that the strength in my soul wasn’t just necessary for me, but for other people. That other people depended on me to be strong for them.
So, having weaknesses, is really not something I want. It’s not something that appeals to me at all.
And no, this has nothing to do with the whole, “macho man” thing that we men have going on. Okay, it probably has something to do with it. It’s being said that “The strength of women is the pretense of weakness, and the weakness of men is the pretense of strength”, so I guess that as a man, I also require myself to be strong.
But I think, that my issue with having weaknesses goes a lil deeper. I mean, every man sometimes uses the “I’m only human” excuse to cover up their faults, therefore admitting to themselves that it’s alright to be weak sometimes. And even I have come to admit it. I have weaknesses. Yes I do. I just hate it so fucking much. It may also be because I give off this air of being someone who isn’t affected by what people do. That I don’t really give a damn about you attitude which I exude works just fine for me. That ice cold wall that very few can pass through is a haven for my mind.
“Solitude is strength; to depend on the presence of the crowd is weakness. The man who needs a mob to nerve him is much more alone than he imagines.” – Paul Brunton
I’m an intense person. That in itself is a weakness, but also comes as an advantage from time to time.
I don’t like the feeling that there are things that I can feel, that I have no control over. That something can occur to make my mind work against me, & there’s nothing I can do about it. The very idea of it is crippling. It makes me feel like ripping my heart off & replacing it with some slab of stone that can’t be reached.
Maybe that’s my problem…that I’ve stopped doing that.
One thing worse than knowing you have weaknesses, is finding a weakness that you never knew you had, & having to come to the pure realization that, you’re a bit weaker than you imagined you were…especially when you want to believe that you have the weaknesses down to the barest minimum.
Recently, I’ve come to the realization of the existence of a weakness. It stems from something that I always knew was in me….but I never knew that it would become a weakness. Maybe because I’ve never given the chance for it to happen. Or…maybe that’s not it. Maybe because I’ve never noticed it. But now I have. Now it’s hit me. And what’s worse, it’s irrational. And what’s even worse, is that the fact that I know that’s it’s irrational isn’t in anyway enough to help me overcome it.
Well, I don’t know how I’m gonna overcome this. I don’t know if it’s even something I should overcome. Maybe in this weakness, I can gain some form of strength. I have no idea.