Excerpts From a Maverick’s Journal: Lessons

Crossing that bridge; (made) of lessons I’ve learned.

I’ve been learning things, very recently. Things about myself that I’d never have believed if anyone had told me. I’d never have believed that I was so… mortal.
That I could be a selfish person, or act without thinking things through. That I could be ruled by my emotions instead of letting reason prevail.

Honestly, it’s been a bit humbling.

But I see now that I’m not as special as I thought. At the end of the day, I’m just another human being, trying to live. I screw up, and make a mess out of things when I think I’m doing the right thing.

The only good thing there is to be said, I’m guessing, is the fact that I realize my faults, accept them without pretense, apologize, and then try to be better.

Acknowledgement. Apology. Amendment. Atonement.

Those Four A’s are the pathway towards learning and becoming a better person. Towards becoming the kind of person you need to be.

What kind of person do I want to be? I want to be the kind that is dependable. The kind of person that learns and grows. That thinks before the words come out of his mouth so that when they do come out, they’re deliberate, with no room for mistakes. I want to do the right thing. I want to be a better man.

Always moving forward. Always better than I was, always worse than I’m gonna be.

What do you want?

PS; I know things have been a bit dreary…I’m going through a process. You could say I’m growing up in a sense. I may start writing stuff again. So… throw ideas at me if you feel like. Or just…watch this space.
Life, love and God’s blessings.

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About The Capoeira Panda

Panda makes his home in the world of words and metaphors. In the hopes to be more than just a confused blogger, he currently works as the editor for an ecommerce company that was good enough to hire him, and lives with his flat mates & two imaginary dogs who get along just fine. He enjoys reading good books, writing, relaxing with his friends, & poking fun at his mother over the phone. When he's not doing any of these, he sometimes sits back and wonders why anyone expects to learn anything useful about him by reading this bio. View all posts by The Capoeira Panda

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