Challenging Myself: Day Twenty

[Strawberry Swing | Frank Ocean]

This song brings so many emotions out of me… I hate listening to it sometimes. It’s so sad… so soulful… reminds me of memories, innocence lost… unwanted destruction… necessary sacrifice…

“…say hello… and say farewell to the places you know…”

#Day Twenty: The Last Argument I Had

Hahaha! I’m actually meant to tell you about the last argument I had? I don’t think so.

Or… well…

The last argument I had was about my family. And about my… character.

When it comes to the bit about my character, I think about it, and I realize that it wasn’t so much about all that, but more about trust, and being letdown… and fatherhood. Fathers don’t realize, a lot of time, how much their children’s lives depend on their being good fathers to them. When you become a father (this is my theory), everything else is supposed to take a back burner position. Your child’s life should become your primary concern. Loving them, teaching them, providing for them, being the father they need… your hopes and dreams should cease to matter because that child has become those hopes and dreams. Their entire future could be counting on what you do…

But what do I know? I may become a father and find myself eating these words when I realize that it’s not always as easy. But I will try. Even if it kills me, even if I hurt myself trying; I will try to be the best possible father I can manage to be. The best man I can possibly manage to be. So help me God.

Day Twenty done! Ten more to go!

G’night y’all.


About The Capoeira Panda

Panda makes his home in the world of words and metaphors. In the hopes to be more than just a confused blogger, he currently works as the editor for an ecommerce company that was good enough to hire him, and lives with his flat mates & two imaginary dogs who get along just fine. He enjoys reading good books, writing, relaxing with his friends, & poking fun at his mother over the phone. When he's not doing any of these, he sometimes sits back and wonders why anyone expects to learn anything useful about him by reading this bio. View all posts by The Capoeira Panda

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